Few days ago, few blocks away from where im staying, a human jump off from his/her kitchen window. what floor? 4th floor. I dont know if he/she is still alive or not. If he/she lands on her head first, confir laa die. if other ways den maybe half paralyze? If u guys as me why th hell that human jump, I dont know. Because in your mind right dis very instant must be asking why he/she jump right?. I dun noe. and anyway, i dunno if its a suicid or an accident where they wanna jemor the kain and den terslip and den fall or wat laa. but the nyonya who told my sister who den told me that its a suicide. If its a suicide, why 4th storey? why not 14th storey? ok, my block only untill 12th storey. Ya, y not 12th storey den?. could be an accident i guess. whatever it is, i dun care. and anyway, my area is known for suicide cases. my block, theres two already. but that was way years back before i moved here. and now its a popular place for breeding MATREPS. Kecik2 da jln bukak kepak, oh, koe ingat aku ni apa, budak taik ingos eh? steady jek babe skit ari tu aku baru balik kejer, ngah jln isap rokok ah, den dis two budak baru naik, jln pass aku bukak kepak siak. maklom la kalaou korang nampak aku kat luar, aku ni muka decent mcm budak poly. so dorang ingat kan aku ni budak2 KENTAL laa. darah gua up jekk. nak ikot kan, gua da rembat da tu dua budak. tapi kan. tak boleh laa. u noe i noe public donnoe laa tu those yang noe. hahahaha. tapi nak rembat pon pikir dua kali jugak laa, aku tinggal daerah sini siol. tak laa. aku budak baik. Iman kuat. Alhamdullilah. tapi serious ahh, when im typing this post rite, im ANGRY SIA!!. bersabar apis bersabar.....
Tadi gua pi solat jumaat. da balik solat, gua jumpa members gua daerah masjid sana. ngah tunggu members, tekak rasa haus pulaklaa, so gua pon pi laa kat masjid sana beli air, sambil gua ngah choose2 air, skalik ni budak yang tukang jual pekik, "pacik, pacik, Pacik nak air apa?" . gua buat bodoh laa, gua ingat ada pakcik kat seblah gua, skalik dia sound lagik laa, "pacik, pakcik, carik air apa?" teros gua pon tengok muka dia, dia tengok muka gua, gua toleh ke kiri, takda pakcik, tiang kemah jek yang ada, gua toleh kanan, bukan pakcik, budak sekolah jek yang ada, gua tengok dia balik, dia tengok gua blik pulak, dia sound lagik laa!! "pakck nak air apa daa?". gua teros mcm senyap jap. dia panggil gua pakcik? muka gua nampak tua ka? takkan kerana gua pakai baju kurong aruah datok gua, gua nampak tua? ni budak baru umur agak2 dlm primary 4, panggil gua pakcik? gua pon nyayot la, " Air katira ada nak?" dia ckp, "Ada cik! dua dollar", gua pon pass la dua dollar den aik tu air. PAKCIK KAPPA AKU? MUKA DA NAMPAK TUA EH?!?!?!?!. apalah nasib.
Take my hand, let us walk in circles for there's nowhere we could go. Our minds are blanked by the thoughts
that lingered from the very first day. It takes one to lead and one to follow, to a new path, so we will not walk in circles again
